Day...??

Haha, it's been a really interesting couple of weeks. I've been really good at working out almost everyday for at least an hour and during the week I eat really well. But 2 weeks ago we were celebrating Ryan's promotion (which involved a ton of food!!!) then last weekend was our 2 year anniversary =) (also involved food, though that one was TOTALLY worth it!!) and then this weekend we're up visiting the family (which hasn't involved much food thus far, but it will....it's my family). I figure as long as I'm working out, the food won't do that much damage but this is the last weekend I can eat like this. I feel like a freaking cow!!

Doesn't help that the depression's been awful lately. I'm hoping it'll get better once this cycle is over, but it's been really weird lately!! It's very up and down. i'll be fine for a day or two and than I'll be depressed for a day or two...it's weird!! Not to mention frustrating as hell. Hopefully today will be better than yesterday was. Most of yesterday was fine, but last night was awful. I think when I get that tired I just don't have the energy to fight it off...if that makes any sense at all?

Anyway, I've probably lost a pound or two so far but that's kind of pathetic if you think about it. 2 pounds in 3 weeks? I'm just trying not to think about it. I haven't weighed yet this week, so maybe it's better than I think it is. I'm so ready to get this weight off but I kind of feel like I'm sabatoging myself. I don't know....I'm just tired and cranky right now. I'm in a hotel room with my parents which is fine but my mother snores like ....something really freaking loud!! haha I fell asleep around 11 and at 4:30 this morning I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep. so finally 5:15 I just got up and took a shower. So I'm showered and dressed and makeuped and everything....at 6:30. We're not leaving til 8. I have no idea what I'm going to do until then, but that's why this post is so long and rambling.

I'm going to try to update this think regularly again. It helps me stay accountable and its a good outlet for me.

Anyway, I'm going to go in search of breakfast (though I don't think they open breakfast for another 20 minutes