Day 1

B: 2 pieces canadian bacon, 1 sandwich thin, and some yogurt
L: turkey sandwich (turkey and a sandwich thin), apple
S: quaker rice cakes and roasted edamame
D: chicken tenders (shape.com recipe), 1/2 cup mashed potatoes, and green beans
S: 1' square of dark chocolate and a kiwi

exercise: 45 minutes on the exercise bike

waaaaay too tired to actually reflect on that. Maybe tomorrow...

Starting again

Since the last post I've graduated college, started working, broke up with Ryan and gotten up to 200 pounds again. Some of that is great and some of it not so much (though I'm still working on which is which to be perfectly honest). I haven't decided what my exact plan of action is- general words as of now are "eat healthy and exercise" but you know how that goes. Maybe I'll join weight watchers again but I see the ADA/AHA diet going a bit better (ie free =P). I'm not getting my hopes up, I'm not going into this with any expectations. I need to lose the weight, and I need to lose it before I head to grad school. That being said, this is going to serve as my online food journal and exercise log.

Day 1

Not that anyone reads this, so explaining why I've been absent from blogging for a while is kind of pointless...but here we go anyway =) I basically gave up. haha That's the short and sweet reason, but I'm back now, doing weightwatchers with my mamma! So far 11 pounds (give or take a few since I don't have the sheet in front of me) gone, ~25 more to go. When I was doing so well, blogging really helped keep me accountable, even if no one actually reads this, so I figured I'd start it up again.

Today- did 40 minutes on the Wii fit, worked up a sweat too!! Oh my goodness, that hula hoopin' will kill you! I'm hoping I can talk dad into a match of boxing tonight to get some more cardio in.

Meeting's tonight so I'll post later and go over how it went. I'm expecting to have lost a bit, though not a whole ton. Half a pound maybe? I'd be pretty happy with that =)

Anyway, I gotta go take a shower, here's the points/intake thus far.

B- 1 mini-bagel with cream cheese (2 points) and low acid OJ (2 points)
L- 2 oz ham (2 points) 1/4 c sweet potatoes (2 points) and a fudge bar (1 point)
D- (planned- chick-fil-a: 12 points)
E- 40 minutes of Wii Fit

Happy Birthday?

(courtesy of http://www.thicksational.com/home/category/nancy-hayssen/)

Daily goal- get through today w/o crying, and try not to do too much damage at the restaurant tonight
Daily quote- "In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and chains. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale." ~Stephen Phillips

Well today's the 21st birthday...and this is by far the most depressing birthday I think I've ever had. I feel old and mostly useless. I think I'm just bummed cause it doesn't seem like anyone remembered my birthday, and I don't get to see my boyfriend (which isn't his fault really), and I have to go out to eat and there's nothing healthy there at all and *grumble, grumble, grumble*

I'm sure it'll get better, but for now I have to go to work

Day 2

(The cover of Crytal Renn's book)

Today's goals- treadmill and water again, and get through today without breaking down (seriously I just need to get through)

Today's quote- "Your past does not equal, nor does it dictate, your future."

DAY 1

Daily Goals- Treadmill for at least 60 minutes, drink 64 oz of water
Daily Quote- "You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there."

Well here's to day 1, weighed in at 197 which isn't so bad considering the amount of fajitas, cake, ice cream, and tequila that were consumed this past weekend. Its still 32 pounds higher than I'd like to weigh, but we'll get there....just one day at a time. I'll post again tonight with my intake for the day. That's another thing I'm going to try to do so I can keep up with my caloric intake and such.

Anyway, off to start school work and get on the treadmill and do laundry...and basically attack my 30 item deep to-do list...yay =P

*edit*
B- cereal, milk, and an apple (approx 185 Cal)
L- myoplex bar (approx 350 Cal)
D- turkey, peach, and a small salad with fat free dressing (no idea....500?600?)

Treadmill for an hour, about 300 Calories burned

Tired as hell and the depression's hitting me really hard.

Honesty can be a painful thing

So here I am again, fat and frustrated. I realize beating myself up won't do me a whole lot of good so I'll refrain as best as I can.

New plan....a pound a week (except for the last few weeks, I have those set to half a pound/week) gets me at 165 by my 3 year anniversary w/ Ryan (June 12). I know that's a long way off, but it gives me some allowance for Christmas and Thanksgiving and birthday's and such. I'm going to start doing daily updates again...which will consist of a daily goal(s), an inspirational picture, and a good quote or verse to get me through the day. This might be kind of rigid, but I think I need a ridiculously detailed plan right now. Workout every weekday, going to start out with treadmill and mild weights, may add in some pilates if I have the time.

Right now I'm just pissed off at myself for failing so many times. But tomorrow's a new day, so I'll update once all of this gets underway.